ADEMA
***Lyrics from Adema booklet, reprinted by permission of Mark Chavez***
Everyone I'm sick of the excuses that you want me to believe
I've been understanding, givin' everything you need
Using me is over now and soon you're gonna see
I'm done with you, I'm done with you
Would there be a difference if I followed what you say?
Taken from my mind and I can't seem to get away
Using me is over now and soon you're gonna see
I'm done with you, I'm done with you
Everyone is the same
Quick to point the blame
All I know is that life is a struggle
Why, I can't seem to escape all the games that you play
All I know is that life is a struggle
Sorry, I'm angry, I've fallen from everything
Why am I so angry inside my head
Life's all the same, It's gonna change, I'm not ashamed to live my life
Everyone is the same
Quick to point the blame
All I know is that life is a struggle
Why, I can't seem to escape all the games that you play
All I know is that life is a struggle
(Repeat)
Why am I so angry inside my head
Life's all the same, It's gonna change, I'm not ashamed
Blow It Away Everyday I think about what you did
Livin' life ain't much with all the shit
Cause I'm going insane with all of it
You keep driving me crazy
Always crazy, you're gonna drive me crazy
You're gonna wake up one day dead inside
Cause your alone, not in my life
I think about you sometimes
And wanna kill you
You disrespected my pride
How could you do this?
All my life has always been like this
Taking shit and I can't deal with this selfish bitch that's always full of it
You keep driving me crazy
Always crazy, you're gonna drive me crazy
You're gonna wake up one day dead inside
Cause your alone, not in my life
I think about you sometimes
And wanna kill you
You disrespected my pride
How could you do this?
I'm going crazy tonight
And I blow it away
You want me to be like you
(Repeat)
No
I think about you sometimes
And wanna kill you
You disrespected my pride
How could you do this?
I'm going crazy tonight
And I blow it away
I think about you sometimes
And wanna kill you
You disrespected my pride
How could you do this?
I'm going crazy tonight
And I blow it away
Giving In Will you, walk me
To the edge again
Shaking, lonely, and I am drinking again
Woke up tonight and no one's here with me
I'm giving in to you
Take me under
I'm giving in to you
I'm dying tonight
I'm giving in to you
Watch me crumble
I'm giving in to you
I'm crying tonight
I'm giving in to you
Caught up, in life
Losing all my friends
Family has tried, to heal all my addictions
Tragic it seems, to be alone again
I'm giving in to you
Take me under
I'm giving in to you
I'm dying tonight
I'm giving in to you
Watch me crumble
I'm giving in to you
I'm crying tonight
I'm giving in to you
(Oh fuck)
I look forward, to dying tonight
Drinks still on myself, life's harder every day
The stress has got me
I'm giving in
Giving
Giving in now!
Take me under
(I'm killing all the faith)
I'm dying tonight
(I'm sick of all that faith)
Watch me crumble
(I'm killing all the faith)
I'm crying tonight
I'm giving in to you
Take me under
I'm giving in to you
I'm dying tonight
I'm giving in to you
Watch me crumble
I'm giving in to you
I'm crying tonight
I'm giving in to you
Take me under
I'm giving in to you
I'm dying tonight
I'm giving in to you
Freaking Out I was so much an outcast
No one ever liked me cause I wasn't wanted
I was so different from the rest of them all
Fucked up on the drugs, from all the speed
And I never got no sleep
Cause I kept on trippin' over what they said
And everything that my mom said made me mad
And everything that my dad said made me sad
Why am I even trying?
I'm crying out, I'm crying out
I cannot seem to keep from freaking out
Spinny round, spinny round, I've fallen down
I cannot seem to keep from freaking out
You keep shootin' those glances
Relating to the rawness, I'm a fuckin' lost kid
Trying so hard to become just like me, talk like me, walk like me
You keep trippin' on everything I wear, every time I swear
Even when it comes to my hair
It seems like you don't have the time to relate to my kind
I'm not a dope pullin' your life
Why am I even trying?
I'm crying out, I'm crying out
I cannot seem to keep from freaking out
Spinny round, spinny round, I've fallen down
I cannot seem to keep from freaking out
I'm trippin' out, I'm trippin' out
I cannot seem to keep from freaking out
Draw me down, breaking down
I've hit the ground
I cannot seem to keep from freaking out
Your dreamy dreads
Are you still tripping on me?
You're drinking dread
Are you still tripping on me?
Now do you drift?
Are you still tripping on me?
Now do you drift?
Why are you tripping on me?
I was so much an outcast
Find a way to make it right
I was so much an outcast
I can't seem to find a way to make it right
I was so much an outcast
No ever liked me
I can't find a way to make it right
I was so much an outcast
I can't seem to find a way to make it right
Why am I even trying?
I'm crying out, I'm crying out
I cannot seem to keep from freaking out
Spinny round, spinny round, I've fallen down
I cannot seem to keep from freaking out
I'm trippin' out, I'm trippin' out
I cannot seem to keep from freaking out
Draw me down, breaking down
I've hit the ground
I cannot seem to keep from freaking out
I'm crying out, I'm crying out, I'm crying out, freaking out
Draw me down, breaking down
I've hit the ground
I cannot seem to keep from freaking out
The Way You Like It I'll get inside you
I'll get inside you
Don't live ashamed, 'cause feelings change but fame remains
The reason why your gonna wanna take me home tonight
It's all the same up in this game, the people change
And money claims everyone from everything
I can't believe that you would think that shit of me
I was amazed at the torment that you put me through
If you can see right through the greed and all your needs
You realize that you were just about as bad as me
Sometimes I only remember the days when I was young
Nowadays no one remembers when they were young and stupid
(The way you like it)
Come on baby help me, someone to confide in
(I'll get inside you)
Now you're beggin' me to stay
My life has changed but fuck the fame, I'll stay the same
You can't complain when you can pay the bills and do your thing
Appreciate, don't player hate, congratulate
I miss the pain and the torment that you put me through
(I'll get inside you)
So what's to fear when everything is crystal clear
You realize that you should do the things you wanna do
Don't give in to what people say, don't be ashamed
To separate the feelings on your mind you can't sedate
(I'll get inside you)
Sometimes I only remember the days when I was young
Nowadays no one remembers when they were young and stupid
(The way you like it)
Come on baby help me, someone to confide in
(I'll get inside you)
Now you're beggin' me to stay
I'll get inside you
Now you're beggin' me to stay
I'll get inside you
You would always say I'd never be shit
They would always say I'd never be shit
But look at me now, look at me now
Now you're beggin' me to stay
I'll get inside you
Now you're beggin' me to stay
The way you like it
Sometimes I only remember the days when I was young
Nowadays no one remembers when they were young and stupid
(The way you like it)
Come on baby help me, someone to confide in
(I'll get inside you)
Now you're beggin' me to stay
Sometimes I only remember the days when I was young
(I'll get inside you)
Nowadays no one remembers when they were young and stupid
(The way you like it)
Come on baby help me, someone to confide in
(I'll get inside you)
Now you're beggin' me to stay
(I'll get inside you)
Now you're beggin' me to stay
(I'll get inside you)
Now you're beggin' me to stay
(The way you like it)
Close Friends Today you told me that I'd hate you forever
I can't believe what's really going on
Somehow I knew that you felt guilty for something
But tell me why you do this to me
Today you told me that I'd hate you forever
I can't believe that you'd wreck my life
I was betrayed, how can you say that you feel sorry inside
It's never staying, losing close friends
I've gone away, you make me stay but I can't tell it from lies
I've gone insane, losing close friends
Today I made the worst mistake
I put my trust into someone I don't know
And now I know because you've done everything possible to me
Made me so upset
And now I know just who to trust because you're laying in bed
You're thinking 'bout all that fucked up shit
I was betrayed, how can you say that you feel sorry inside
It's never staying, losing close friends
I've gone away, you make me stay but I can't tell it from lies
(Lies)
I've gone insane, losing close friends
I'm so weak
The closeness of your skin
The smell of this place
Makes me go insane
I
You make me go insane
(Repeat)
I was betrayed, how can you say that you feel sorry inside
It's never staying, losing close friends
I've gone away, you make me stay but I can't tell it from lies
I've got insane, losing close friends
Losing close friends
(Repeat)
Do What You Want To Do Where will we go?
Where will we go?
Sign away all of my decisions
Tell when I breed
Terminate opinions
I dream away my freedom to please you
Let them talk so they feel important
They don't mean a thing, this is my own dream
Why do you have to put this on me?
(Where will we go?)
I'm a mess
(Where will we go?)
I'm a mess
Do what you wanna do
Where the fuck you wanna do it
Try hard to live your life
Live life the way that you want
Do what you wanna do
Where the fuck you wanna do it
Try hard to live your life
Live life the way that you want
Life's okay, so don't complain
You can't obtain, figure out how to maintain
It's a shame, make a change
So life will never ever find me down
Found out just what it's really all about
Never doubt, I wish I could get out
Why do you have to put this on me?
(Where will we go?)
I'm a mess
(Where will we go?)
I'm a mess
Do what you wanna do
Where the fuck you wanna do it
Try hard to live your life
Live life the way that you want
Do what you wanna do
Where the fuck you wanna do it
Try hard to live your life
Live life the way that you want
Find a way
(Repeat)
(Where will we go?)
I'm a mess
(Where will we go?)
I'm a mess
Do what you wanna do
Where the fuck you wanna do it
Try hard to live your life
Live life the way that you want
Do what you wanna do
Where the fuck you wanna do it
Try hard to live your life
Live life the way that you want
Skin Days will come that make no sense
My present situation makes me think too much, too much
It all revolves around you
This life that I'm living means nothing without you
I'd shed my skin for you (I'd shed my skin for you)
What would you want me to do (What would you want me to do)
I will always love you, but I can't live like this
This problem here is my fault
It's not that I don't care but I'm so lost
I'd shed my skin for you (I'd shed my skin for you)
What would you want me to do (What would you want me to do)
I will always love you, but I can't live like this
Why
Now you (With me, a buzz) see why
(Now you see why)
Don't fuck with feelings inside
Who you lying to? Will I survive?
I like what you put my through, 'cause I feel almost alive (Almost alive)
I'd shed my skin for you (I'd shed my skin for you)
What would you want me to do (What would you want me to do)
I will always love you, but I can't live like this
I'd shed my skin for you (I'd shed my skin for you)
What would you want me to do (What would you want me to do)
I will always love you, but I can't live like this
Pain Inside Realize that I've lost control, impulses keep flashing through my head
I'm on the outside
Take up all my life inside, why would I let them make up my mind
And be mislead
Go ahead make up your mind
I have had enough of who they want
Leave me alone
This pain inside I can't understand
This hate in life that will not go away (Go away)
Go ahead make up your mind
I have had enough of who they want
Leave me alone
Realize that I've lost control, impulses keep flashing through my head
I'm on the outside
This pain inside I can't understand
This hate in life that will not go away (Go away)
This pain inside I can not live with it
It feels like no one really understands
It's always killing me (Killing me)
The problems I face daily
It's always things that I have always take in vain
I'm sick of you judging me
I'm sick of you judging me
I'm sick of you judging me
This pain inside I can't understand
This hate in life that will not go away (Go away)
This pain inside I can not live with it
It feels like no one really understands
It's always killing me
The problems I face daily
Speculum There's so many people dying
You complain about your situation
What about me?
Half the world wouldn't know
What it's like to lose your seed
Maybe you can understand
(How I feel)
I cannot reach that soul
You're probably watching over us
Know that I think of you
It's killing me
The guilt has lasted years, still cry
It was all planned out
Why was I last to know?
Don't you trust in me?
The table's cold, it's too late
To make up for these mistakes
Maybe you can't understand
(How I feel)
I cannot reach that soul
You're probably watching over us
Know that I think of you
It's killing me
(How I feel)
If I would have known
I can't say what I would have done
If you could forgive
I'd like to rest with you someday
(How I feel)
I cannot reach that soul
You're probably watching over us
Know that I think of you
It's killing me
(How I feel)
If I would have known
I can't say what I would have done
If you could forgive
I'd like to rest with you someday
Drowning Die!
I gave in to
The stress in life
I can't escape
The pressure seems to get me down
It's like a needle in my spine
It stings inside
Poisons me with time
I can't deal with your lies
I wish I could watch you drown and die
And take my time
(Lies)
It's always been a problem, can't you see?
I don't get
(Your lies)
People have said (They have said)
I'm not okay (I'm not okay)
I lost my mind, numb me 'til I won't feel pain again
It's like a needle in my spine
It stings inside
Poisons me with time
I won't deal with your lies
I wish I could watch you drown and die
And take my time
(Lies)
It's always been a problem, can't you see?
I don't get
(Your lies)
Life is gone
I have no one
Life is good
I am no one
Life is gone
I have no one
Life is scarred
I am no one
Life is gone
I have a lie
Something, something inside of my mind
Let it all go and tie me to your fight
Nothing is real inside, just the lies
Something keeps building you high with lies
I wish I could watch you drown and die
And take my time
(Lies)
It's always been a problem, can't you see?
I don't bend
(The lies)
I wish I could watch you drown and die
And take my time
(Lies)
It's always been a problem, can't you see?
I don't bend
Trust Let me breathe
Let me breathe
I can't even think right now
Something's got me feeling guilty
Hurt you slowly but so surely
I don't know why, love you so much
I can't feel because I'm lost
Not too much mad as no more
Is it you, is it me, is it us or is it trust?
Or is it trust?
Pushing into what I want
Because I am so goddamn selfish
Left you hanging, stopped relating
I don't know why, love you so much
I can't feel because I'm lost
Not too much mad as no more
Is it you, is it me, is it us or is it trust?
I'm so alone, empty and lost, it's easier to let you go
Time will erode the shame and the fault, it's easier to let you go
(Is it you, is it me)
It's easier to let you go
(Let me breathe)
Let me breathe
I can't feel because I'm lost
Not too much mad as no more
Is it you, is it me, is it us or is it trust?
Or is it trust?
(Repeat)
I'm so alone, empty and lost, it's easier to let you go
Time will erode the shame and the fault, it's easier to let you go
(Repeat)
Is it you, is it me
(Repeat)
It's easier to let you go
Breathe
(Repeat)
Let me breathe
Breathe
(Repeat)
